Bad Day.

Lately it's been a bumpy road. happy sad calm angry, all in one day. but today i couldn't ever have expected what was dropped on me at once. it felt asif i was in a room filled with people, screaming at the top of my lungs and no one even looks up.
School holidays, just as normal; late nights, afternoon wakeups, nothing but food made of fat and sugar. A day out to the shopping centre (Meadow Hall. Sheffield) with mum and sister seemed to put me back into my happy mood which was what i needed. From the lack of sleep moods where very easily changed, trying on lovely clothes and buying the best ones as the usual shopping spree goes, when finished we sat down to have a drink as our usual ritual of the month to talk about everything and anything. When the order arrived we got into a conversation of one of my best friends moving house, so my mum decided that was a good chance to ask me the most rediculous question ever; 'How would you feel about moving to Australia?' i didn't even look at her and replied 'NO!' For ages her and my sister where attempting to convinse with all the 'opertunities' and the 'advantages etc. after they had done failing to persuade, all that would come out of my mouth was 'what about dad?' They moved us twenty minutes away from him around four years ago and he went mental, imagine his reaction when he was told that three of his kids where moving to the other side of the world! i have been told i am only aloud to tell one friend because they are waiting to find out weather they will let us in the country or not, but it's most likely they will, i didn't even think twice about who to tell because i know that i can trust him with my life. Now all i can do is wait, wait endlessly untill we get an answer. Moving over to Australia would mean leaving everyone behind, family, friends, and i don't believe i am ready for that yet. I have been told that we will move not long after i finish school, which will be around April 2010, so that is some time to get my head around the idea and if it goes ahead, i don't know, maybe i will begin to be happy about it all who knows, only time can tell. <33